♥ Thursday, October 11, 2007
time for postinmonday, reach home 1plus in e mornin n wen stay overnite at my hus.. we chat till around 3plus den slp.. mornin 5.30 wake up cus she say wan go back b4 her dad wake up.. i wake her up at 5.30 den she say dunno gt bus ma so went back slp den around 6 wake her up again den she say too tired dun care her dad la.. we went back slp den.. mornin she gt so many call wake me up too den no long dad wake wo up aft tat when back slp again my msg, went slpin back again msg stupid msg la! hai wo cant slp in peace! haiish around 11 plus wake up eat breakfast den use com awhile jiu go 809 meet my mom wif wen to pass her somethin.. aft tat take bus wif wen when 900plus buy thin.. den wan pei her home den she say wan go tz first, went dere play game awhile jiu 3 liao time really pass so fast norh.. went home rest awhile cook myself lunch plus dinner.. den chat wif gor suddenly i found him outside my hus so lame la him stupid monkey haha.. at nite jiu went find henry gor, serwei ahgong n jiawen vampire norh.. slack awhile henry kp disturb wo! den i very fan n angry jiu run away norh i dunno y tis few wk i bcus like tis.. very easy gt angry! haiish mayb more n more fan lor.. i somehow tot of end my life no one or two time is alot of time i tried control n dun go anyhow tink bt still haiish.. i jus cant control my temper n my emotion! haiish my mind gone mad soon haiish.. wat went wrong? i tryin to hurt myself bt tis wat i wan! i cant control it! haiish i really wish everythin jus end like tis bt i cant jus leave like tis rite? haiish my heart n my mind is confuse i dunno wat i wan to do! HAIISH! nvm i will try my best to control myself.. btw u all jus tc k? sry for everythin..IM SO CONFUSE..X/3
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♥ Thursday, October 04, 2007
today thu a postin day again i dunno y i like post on thu.. mayb i more free on thu ba! main exam start bt it dun go on as well as i wan.. first paper SS den aft tat jiu MATH paper 1 haiish maybe i nvr slp well e nite b4 i havin a flu ytd i sat for all both my paper wif no ready mood cus i havin a very bad flu! when doin SS paper i feelin still ok not tat worst bt math paper, omg i really very sick till i cant gt my brain workin! alot of qus i cant tink properly so i anyhow do haiish i tink i goin retain le ba bt i really wont wan to study if i retain.. cus i really cant study wat i did my very best le bt still.. haiish aft today both paper i felt so down my math, SS n D&tT is gone! goin to prepare for e worst i tink.. i actually felt like cryin bt i cant cus i dun wan them to wori! haiish nvm is ok, as my mood jus gt much better when outside wif gor n wen they all.. i noe is true tat im goin to face e world much more worst den all tis.. i will b tryin! tryin to face all tis wifout failin.. bt i noe for now i still cant b tat strong on my own! wifout anyone! as my smilz gtin more n more fake, i noe im goin fall soon.. e day had came i gone omost mad! on e 25/9 i really breakdown i finally cant control myself! i really felt very fan.. everythin goin on not as smooth as i wan.. even thought im hapi abt my days wif my precious frenz n gan bt dere is still alot of thin happenin.. lucky tat day i did calm down if not i tink i will really gone mad.. haiish i jus felt i had lost my way.. im gtin worst, i dunno wat im doin i really dunno! i felt so blank in my mind.. bt still no matter wat not really much ppl understand my feelin.. haiish i oso dunno y i rite till like tis i didnt wan to post like tis bt jus some sort ritin out of point.. haiish i jus followin my heart to rite tis.. bt y suddenly like tis? i tot is over.. haiish nvm everyone jus tc.. especially all my precious frenz n baobei gan!
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