♥ Thursday, October 04, 2007
today thu a postin day again i dunno y i like post on thu.. mayb i more free on thu ba! main exam start bt it dun go on as well as i wan.. first paper SS den aft tat jiu MATH paper 1 haiish maybe i nvr slp well e nite b4 i havin a flu ytd i sat for all both my paper wif no ready mood cus i havin a very bad flu! when doin SS paper i feelin still ok not tat worst bt math paper, omg i really very sick till i cant gt my brain workin! alot of qus i cant tink properly so i anyhow do haiish i tink i goin retain le ba bt i really wont wan to study if i retain.. cus i really cant study wat i did my very best le bt still.. haiish aft today both paper i felt so down my math, SS n D&tT is gone! goin to prepare for e worst i tink.. i actually felt like cryin bt i cant cus i dun wan them to wori! haiish nvm is ok, as my mood jus gt much better when outside wif gor n wen they all.. i noe is true tat im goin to face e world much more worst den all tis.. i will b tryin! tryin to face all tis wifout failin.. bt i noe for now i still cant b tat strong on my own! wifout anyone! as my smilz gtin more n more fake, i noe im goin fall soon.. e day had came i gone omost mad! on e 25/9 i really breakdown i finally cant control myself! i really felt very fan.. everythin goin on not as smooth as i wan.. even thought im hapi abt my days wif my precious frenz n gan bt dere is still alot of thin happenin.. lucky tat day i did calm down if not i tink i will really gone mad.. haiish i jus felt i had lost my way.. im gtin worst, i dunno wat im doin i really dunno! i felt so blank in my mind.. bt still no matter wat not really much ppl understand my feelin.. haiish i oso dunno y i rite till like tis i didnt wan to post like tis bt jus some sort ritin out of point.. haiish i jus followin my heart to rite tis.. bt y suddenly like tis? i tot is over.. haiish nvm everyone jus tc.. especially all my precious frenz n baobei gan!
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