♥ Tuesday, January 15, 2008
haiish thin change again n again.. ytd omost really wanna giv up! bt lucky henry`gor come find me.. im really very tired..
e day did went jus like wat i oread noe.. mornin call lin`mei wanna met her cus i noe i cmi otw to sch.. so as it is went meet them at marhsall block downstair.. den leave my fone at his hus jiu walk to sch liao.. no change other den my mood.. assembly, story readin den go back clz so sian.. i all along stare into blank.. haiish.. go back clz first lesson eng.. so sian dun rmb wat i do liao, i tink i only stare into blank.. den bell ring bt i didnt even noe soon jiu math wan slp bt cant, try to listen bt i dunno y jus simply cant gt into my brain.. cher giv back math practice 1a aft tat she walk around n passin by my sit so she ask me do e correction.. den she oso say i is e only one gt all correct for 1a tat y she put super while e rest she put for fun lol.. dunno true ma? bt e only tink i noe is tat e work is teach by nick n colin.. im hapi n oso sad, my tears rolled down out of sudden.. say tis ltd ba.. den history go itr2 again same didnt pay attention to cher, jus wait for bell ring! aft recess dnt dunno doin wat jus stare at blank again.. awhile ltr mr goh bring us to bkshop buy dnt paper den i lie to him say i call home bt actually i call wen to ask her whether she can find dao colin n tell her i confirm meetin her aft sch.. aft e call my mood gt worst.. back to clz n still havin 5min break, n again my tears roll down again tis time is much more worst.. i dunno wat to do! ye n liaa saw me cryin n ask me wat happen bt i say notin.. n cher tot tat i sick n ask me to rest.. n so i put my head down to rest cus i cant control my tears.. awhile ltd we swop clz wif b1 n i continue restin.. i didnt noe i hav slpt for omost 2hr.. bt i noe i not really call slp bt.. haiish e day in sch jus end like tis..i cried jus cus of ytd many thin happen jus one nite n thin change again.. it jus cus i very wori abt colin, i noe he really very tired liao i noe he is stress n yt again i let him wori n fan.. im really sry for it! i really cant 4giv myself for giv gor so many trouble norh.. i noe he is stress n tired n yt i tis mei cant help him bt still givin him more pro.. im really sry i felt tat i so useless norh! i really cant do anythin.. i wan u fang wo like wat i tell mummy i dun wan c anythin happen to u.. i really dun wan! i noe i cant bear to c any of my baobei precious you shi u noe? n for now i dare wan u ren wo as mei anymore cus i felt i tis mei really let u wori way too much.. mayb it will b e better way for u ba.. i jus hope u will really really takecare can?i dun wanna lost my baobeiprecious gor bt yt i really dunno wat to do i noe tis is a better way for u isnt? u noe how much worst i felt lettin go.. i noe i gtin lost now bt i tryin to gt back e rite track wifout ur.. to prove tat im no longer e mei u owaz wori!
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