♥ Tuesday, July 22, 2008
tis few wk didnt wan to post dunno y.. mayb to tired wif dnt! like i say i will b back soon, bt today jus too moody! so hope i will gt better by postin..
22.7.2008
today not a great day, everythin seem too tired n extra stress for me!
went sch as per normal, havin a bad headache cus tis few day really rushin for my d&t.. i noe i shouldnt do last min work bt is dere a choice? everyday tink n tink.. bt still i will fork out time to pei baobei mayb on fone or msn? bt we will chat till quite late. it really somehw tirin as i nd wake up early in e mornin, bt wat to do? i really wan pei him or rather say i wan him pei me.. i jus wish he can really understand me more!
nowadays we havin lot of quarrel, n im tired of it.. im oso afraid i will giv up soon!i jus wish not to quarrel wif him anymore yt i dunno wat to do.. so i choose not to talk when i noe somethin not rite.. bt tis oso will not help, i didnt noe wat else i can do? jus felt tirin.. i noe u r oso tired, i noe it ok? bt u noe, u didnt spare a tot for me? it not only u tired n stress! c'in u like tis u noe it hurt my heart ma? u noe hw terrible i felt, when c u like tis yt i cant do anythin? i pei'in u goin through it yt u wont noe? u only tot u r e wan who is sad, bt u noe i c u like tis i dun felt gd too! haiish jus dun wish talk much abt tis anymore i noe u dun like bt i jus wish i can post my feelin hope u understand! i loves you lot ok? X3333
today 22.7.2008 is e 8 yr death anniversary of my grandpa.. i started to missin him lot! tis few wk flipin through my old foto album n tink of e past, i really felt so terrible! haiish i dun hav much memories abt him bt i rmb he is e one who really teng me lot! he owaz bring me here n dere wif him b4 he gt sick.. i felt so stress i really miss him lot! u noe baobei hearin u say so much abt ur gandma it make me tink of my grandparents more! u noe frm young i being disown by 2 grandparent , so i left wif only de other 2.. yt e one who teng me e most, i gt e least time wif him! it really didnt hurt me tat much when he leave is jus cus im really still young n dunno wat is e saddness of death.. i didnt shed a tears if im not wrg, as durin tat time i still dunno much abt wat goin on.. till i gt older i understand e sad of being apart wif e kin or e person who teng u! haiish i dunno y today i jus cant stop tinkin of e past tgt wif my grandpa.. i really miss u lot i hope i can visit u bt i cant i still gt to wait till nxt yr den can go wif grandma they all! i hope i can go rite now really rite now!!!! haiish hao la i gt to stop le.. i cant carry on like tis! tat all ba will b back soon again.. X333 haiish..
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